Hi guys,
I've got a question about motivation, it's been troubling me for some time so I thought I would join and ask (hopefully I can keep this short).
So my dilemma revolves around my lack of motivation to learn in the I.T. field, a field I am still very interested in but have found that my lack of motivation to study and learn more has fizzed out some what (I use to be very Interested in the field, Went to College and completed my Degree) did a lot of self learning before the Degree, but find it very boring to just read hard textbooks (say on Programming - which I enjoy very much once I get over the initial motivation to start learning).
Some reasons for this I believe could be all/one/or another of the following:
- turning a hobby into a career
- being payed for a hobby
- lack of confidence
- perfectionism?
- Pressures from work to do things that don't Interest me
- Wanting to do things well, but not being allowed to due to work
- Depression/Anxiety?
- Lack of other hobbies (Job + Hobby = one in the same)
- I need an application or a novel task to set myself as a goal?
Most comments I get are, "Just do something else for your job/hobby" but Computers (especially System Administration/Hardware Support) are pretty much all what I enjoy, But at the moment it's very much a love/hate relationship. I've always been very interested in Networks, started my CCNA once or thrice but never finished it. I'm not sure If I'm doubting my ability to do it, But when there is no pressure on to learn it I have no problems understand it and very advanced topics (am I trigger shy?, shy of making the commitment, scared of failure?, I question my knowledge alot).
I think a big problem is when I was at School I was the only person who was Interested in Computers so I got slogged with the "Computer Genius" title and since then I have got a lot of breaks from my knowledge, but never really felt like there is anytime I have done anything great to warrant that title. Could this of had a negative effect on my growth? Could I have rested on my laurels too much as I'm doing now? Do I need to knock it into myself that I'm really just average and I have a lot more to learn?
help