Guilty About Leaving
I'm trying to find a way to not feel guilty about leaving but I can't. This was my first full-time job and first IT job at that.
I've been on a wacky ride but I feel like these guys are just beyond my help. I can't do it alone but that's what they're expecting of me. I want out.
I've matured to the point where people can somewhat stand to be around me and I even get people who come to me first now instead of my lead. It feels nice, but there's always this feeling that comes back where I feel like everyone still has no faith in me and would still rather have my "lead" doing the work. Truthfully, they don't treat me like I'm someone they can depend on; just someone who they can use.
I'm tired of feeling this feeling. It isn't so much pride or ego as much as I consider it disrespect. They don't even consider my opinion for things. They're constantly going for someone else's idea.
I might as well go. Yet, I know some good folk in here who I don't want to see affected by me leaving.
I'm just overthinking things and the hard-time truth is that I'm replaceable. I'm not special, I'm not important, but I'm not redundant. I'm essential only because I've been made to be.
How did you guys deal with feeling guilty?