Put in my 2 weeks
I finally did it. I put in my notice this morning after a very awkward and cringey phone call but I managed to keep my head in and all in all, it looks like I'm moving on.
I feel like I failed my mission. Feel like a dick 'cause I'm leaving during COVID. I didn't really improve on anything here and that's all mainly 'cause everything is either half dead or things just get kicked down the road. There's no time, money, or resources to solve/fix everything that's breaking down.
I learned a bit. I learned of my errors, some lingo, and some procedures. I learned to pull things out of my ass a little better. Still have trouble with not giving a straight "no" under pressure but I'll get there.
Despite it all, I don't feel proud. Feels like I'm just running away (which I sort of am). They don't even have a replacement for me yet. This whole thing has been a let-down because of the notion that if I can't pull myself to tackle some challenges head on, when would I? Granted a lot of it was out of my reach and I was dealing with things out of order but still.
In the back of my head, all I can see are the words "failure" and "coward".
How did you guys handle your first resignation?